Camp sucked and rocked on many different levels this year. I learned a lot of new junk and got to put it to use, which was exciting, because that means I'm one step closer to being an effective camp counselor, but my CIT group is still full of bitches and the staff members are still gossipy brats and nobody really seems to uphold the values that that camp is supposed to represent. Hello, it's Girl Scout camp? I didn't come to hear Ringo jabbering about how Ariom is allegedly sleeping around with everybody in my CIT group. I didn't come to find out that Ritz and Puttee are making out in the bunk across from me while I'm asleep.

I most certainly didn't come to have my life put in danger when the autistic CIT broke a window right behind me, and threatened physical violence several times.

Who let her in, anyway? I'm not prejudiced against people with mental disabilities, but our Camp Director knows she can never be staff. This girl is prone to violent emotional outbursts, and because she's autistic, she can't always help herself. We can't have a person like that around the girls, and the fact that it took this long to finally send her home disappoints me.

Jeez. It seems like The Other Disneyland, aka Camp St. Albans might be taking some unwanted turns. I love that place, but I'm not sure I like seeing the staff side of it...

They're so mean to each other sometimes. Shouldn't everybody be, like, really super nice to each other? It's camp. I don't think that friendship should just be a show put on for the campers. I think the counselors should be genuinely appreciative of each other and recognize their strengths and weaknesses without all the drama in between.

Golly. It's given me a lot to think about, though, I mean, with everything that's happened this year. I'm almost afraid to come back next year, just because I don't want to deal with the same bull shit from girls my own age. I heard staff discussing another staff member's possible employment termination in clear view of the girls; they were using names and everything. It didn't matter that I also happened to be four feet away. Did they expect me to just not listen? I wanted to bring it to Lynx, our Camp Director, and Buggaboo, a CIT 3 told me to just 'stay out of it because staff members gossip about other staff members all the time, and it's none of my business and not my place'.

I wasn't going to do it to be a tattletale, I wanted to report their behavior because the girls could obviously hear them. But it kind of gave me an idea of the underlying hierarchy at camp; I'm way at the bottom.

I mean, I guess I should have expected a lot of tension; that place is Estrogen Fest 3000. But I also wish I could expect a level of decency from these people. Especially the staff members. They're adults, damn it. They should know better than to behave like this.

I want to believe that this place still holds the same magic it did ten years ago. I want to believe that all the people there are good.

It's getting a whole lot harder, though. I'll post some pictures later. I took video of our Camp Director playing ukulele, too.

Ugh, I know, I haven't been bothered to post to say that I'm back. But I'm still so busy!

Damn life. Getting in the way of my lack of life.

Maybe this is why most teenagers don't have blogs.

Anyway, in a sum-up, Girl Scout camp was amazing, with the exception of some spiteful bitches, school is almost here, and I now own a Disney music collection to rival the best. It has every song and ambience track from the parks and the movies.

This includes Walt's Dedication Speech and the train/monorail monologues.